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20

Jul

Smiling & Laughing cause life is beautiful. =)

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

-Desiderata

01

Mar

Finished

Finally, it is finished. I’m only looking forward, I’m not looking back. Leaving the past where it belongs because what’s done is done and what’s gone is gone.

You can’t change the past, but you can change the future. Enjoy the things that come. Learn from the things that go. Appreciate the things that stay. Life comes at you fast-live it, love it, laugh about it.

01

Jan

The Best & Worst

The year 2010 has been quite a year…The Best & Worst year of the 23 years that i’ve had.

I don’t think I’ve ever learned as much about myself as I have this year.  In actuality, the past 6 months.  I have seen the person I was, the person I want to be, & the person I have become.  I have learned what is real, what is fake, what was meant to be, & what wasn’t.  I’ve learned more about what I want & what I don’t.  What I can live without, and what I can’t. And I’ve figured out how strong I really am.  

I’ve been saying that “Life Sucks” since as long as I can remember.  And you know what? Life still sucks.  But it’s like the movie Starship Troopers… it sucks so bad, that you love it. The good, the bad, & the ugly.  Life has not turned out the way that I planned.  But i’ve learned how to adapt, how to make the best of what is given to me & to most of all i’m learning from my mistakes… or as a wiser person tells me… i’m learning from life experience.

People have judged me.  They think they know who I am, they think they can read me like a book.  They think they have me figured out.  But they don’t. I don’t even really know who I am, but i’m slowly figuring it out.  Let people think what they want.  Let people judge.  The only opinion that really matters to me doesn’t belong to them.  

I have a wonderful family that loves and supports me.  They’re always there for me whether I want them to be or not.  They are the basic foundation of who I am.  I have the best set of friends that I could ever ask for.  Each one has touched my life in a way that can’t be explained & I could never express how thankful I am that I have them in my life.  Real love knows no distance, it knows no defeat & that is summarized in my relationship with these people.  

Life as I know it has ended.  It will only get better from here.

Bring it 2011.  I’m ready for you.

17

Dec

Have I mentioned that I love my life? Cause i really do :)

13

Dec

It’s only a regret if you don’t learn from it. Otherwise, it’s called life experience.

27

Nov

Be Thankful

I am thankful for the life that’s been given to me. I have a neurotic, but wonderful family and I have the best friends any person could ever ask for.

Now is the time to be thankful. Life is too short to be angry and sad. Life has always been complicated & hard, but there is also joy and happiness.

No regrets. No bitterness. Nothing but love. <3

I’m thankful for all of you who have been apart of my life. You’ve all helped me become the awesome person that is me =)

Happy Holiday!!

10

Nov

Brand New Me

Over the past couple months, I’ve definitely learned a lot about myself:  
The kind of person I am & the kind of person I want to be. 
Turns out… they’re pretty similar.  

I’ve been in San Diego for about 40 days.  In that time I got a volunteer position at UCSD/SIO, I got at crazy cool job at Global Laser Center, and I’ve gotten the chance to experience life in Pacific Beach San Diego.  

I’ve met new crazy amazing people, gotten to know other people better, and most importantly — learning how to love someone.  ME.

Dude… I’m freaking awesome. =) 

06

Nov

Fake it til you make it

02

Nov

haha. remember the “25 things…” from facebook?! I found mine! :) All still true.

25 things

1. I love to laugh.  Although it may seem that I have a very bitter and cynical view of life, I love sarcasm and quick wit.  So even though things I say may seem a bit morbid and sad, it’s only because it makes me smile.

2. Music has got to be a major love in my life.  For every mood, for every feeling there’s a song out there that captures is perfectly.  Music has saved me from the dark times of my life, and although the songs and tunes may change, the feeling it gives me never will.

3. I don’t open up to many people, and if it seems that I have… chances are I probably didn’t.  Sad, I know, but I have a hard time trusting people, and there are only a few people who actually know who I am completely, inside and out.

4. I love the word “button.”  For some reason I think it’s an awesome word to say.

5. I like to keep things simple: jewelry, clothes, accessories, relationships, and life.  I try to avoid complications as much as possible, but sometimes I think it likes to stalk me.

6. I like to name inanimate objects.  For instance: my phone’s name is George and my ipod’s name is Bob.

7. Sometimes I think I sabotage myself in order to prevent myself from getting hurt, because I think that good things won’t last.  Honestly, I think I’m petrified of being happy, because then you have something to lose.

8. I am very brand loyal… like almost neurotically.  For example, I only like to use Garnier Fructis hair products; I only really like to eat Yoplait yogurt, Special K cereal, and Silk soymilk.

9. I have recently found the joy of blowing drying hair.  It’s super fun and makes my hair look pretty.

10. I’m a sucker for those romantic slow songs.  Gabe Bondoc is my new obsession.

11. I love grocery stores… any type.  It has food & a “homey” feel… what more you need?

12. If I cannot pronounce a name, or if I don’t like it, I’ll make up a new name for a person, and most likely I’ll believe that the name I made up is their actual name. 

13. I’m a relatively shy person.. and when I mean relatively.. I mean somewhat ridiculously.  If I’m surrounded by people I don’t know very well I have a tendency to remain extremely quiet.  So if I don’t utter a word and I’m fiddling with my hair… it means I’m extremely nervous.

14. I <3 men’s cologne.  Can’t explain it… but I think they smell  better than women’s perfume.  Especially Giorgio Armani’s Aqua di Gio, it’s my favorite.

15. I honestly wish people who don’t like me would just say it to my face instead of going behind my back to hate on me.  The whole two-faced thing/lying thing really irks me.  If you don’t like me, that’s cool, just let me know so I don’t look like an idiot trying to be friends with you when you don’t want to talk to me.

16. I wish we were all more straightforward with one another.  This prevents miscommunication.  I hate guessing games… I suck at them.

17. I will not eat a peanut butter and jelly sandwich unless it’s on banana bread.  It’s just no good without it.  Thank you jeff for that.

18. I am stubbornly independent.  I think I can do things for myself or take care of myself and unintentionally give others a hard time when they try to help me out.  Sorry guys.

19. I’m ridiculously stupid when it comes to common sense.  I’m very naïve and make very stupid decisions.  lol… I won’t elaborate.

20. I have trouble saying words that end with “-ded” followed by the word “it.”  For some reason I always add an extra syllable. Ex: edited it à edited-ed di-dit 

21. I love double negatives, even though it would be easier to rephrase the statement, double negatives are just more entertaining.  Ex: I would go à I would not not go. LOL

22. Apparently, I’m not very asian.. not even on my best day.  I’m sorry guys… that’s kind of what happens when you grow up in Missouri.  Although I do have a few white friends that are more asian than me…

23. My humor is cynical sarcasm, that’s just how my mind seems to function.  The more I make fun of you, the more I care.  Seriously.  What puzzles me is that some people just don’t seem to understand the beauty of a good burn.

24. I hate talking on the phone for the most part, I sort of wish they everyone would just get a phone plan with text messages to make my life easier.

25. I am a conundrum, an oxymoron.  I don’t make sense very often (both literally and figuratively), but I’ve come to terms with who I am and I rather enjoy being me.  

31

Oct

When I get sad, I just stop being sad and be awesome instead. True story